Embarking on a Journey of Self Love

Hey there. I know, I know. It’s been like what? An entire month since I posted something. I love blogging but February was a hectic month for yours truly. ( It is still crazy over here) Look, I have a two year old son, my five month old daughter and a whole husband. To top it all, mummy here has a job, she also has a side hustle that keeps her awake till 2am. (Kill me now) It has been so crazy sometimes I forget to wear a bra , I am out there hanging low, headlights on, electrocuted looking hair and suitcases under my eyes. I am barely alive, I am in my zombie mode and the only thing that keeps me going is copious amounts of coffee. Man, I don’t even have quality time with my family, I am either too busy or exhausted.

So today I looked in the mirror and I was shocked. I stared at the tired weary looking stranger with dead cold eyes. I couldn’t believe it,I mean how did this happen? How did we end up looking ten years older, a little bit witchy and what seemed to be a permanent grimace on my face?! I am not even kidding I look like the female version of the Grinch that stole Christmas. Absolutely frightening! The burrows on my forehead are not smoothing out. Then it hit me, 6.30 am this morning it hit me. I have been running around taking care of everyone, but who has been taking care of me? Do I even drink water anymore? I don’t even know but what I know is I need to slow down and indulge in some self love expeditions. A break. A holiday. Take some time out and regroup.

So this month of March marks the journey of self love. I am going to be appallingly selfish, Yup I am about to put myself first for a change! Goodbye five minute hurried showers and hello to a nice hot soak in the bath tub. Mummy is going to light some scented candles, play a bit of Miguel ,run the tub, soak in some Epsom salt, essential oils and rose petals. All that accompanied by cold glass of Rosè. ( and no hubby, you can not join me, please go away.) I am cancelling all appointments today, switching off my phone and give this body some TLC. After my soak I am making myself one hell of a breakfast meal, chew slowly and savour on textures and flavours. I noticed I could not even sit for a meal. It’s either I am walking around the office with an oily unhealthy burger with condiments dripping down my chin or literally stuff my face like George of the jungle. Dine and wine they say? Well here I am. Yes and I am taking one long nap. Not even Riley and Malik are going to deter this excursion.

While the temptation to switch on my phones is going to nag the hell out of me, I am going to try my best to downright ignore it. Lots of water and rest is what I owe to myself. It explains these headaches that I had accustomed to. Resting is not just taking care of me physically but mentally. How else am I going to conquer this world when I am always tired? Creating a work schedule on my Outlook will de clutter my time and have a more organized routine that is not draining. I have been sleeping for 3-4 hours a day, honestly I need to slow down ( I just wanna get to know, but don’t turn around…) Ha! These millennials won’t even understand what I did there. Which is really really sad. Anyhoo, so it’s time to start sleeping early and get myself a nights good sleep. It’s all about me, me, me! You know what the say, a happy mum means a happy home.

While I take some time out today, I am going to research on some great skin routines to get my glow back, oil these ashy elbows and get them cucumber slices to rest on these eyelids. You see the thing about self love is that it is the good kind of selfishness because it brings the best out of you. That glow from inside out that radiates towards everyone around you. You love better, laugh harder, become more productive while you live the best of your life. It’s rewarding, nothing compares to the peace of mind that adorns this sort of self pilgrimage. I am willing to take on the journey. I owe it to myself, to my kids to hubby and everyone around me. I turned down that girls night out invite ( smacks forehead) I need that, to let lose and unwind. Play hard, work hard is the me motto. I have my head right but when life comes at you it’s Jumanji chaos. Like I haven’t watched Black Panther yet! It’s ludicrous! Wakanda madness is this? What? I can make a pun with a movie I haven’t watched. Sue me.

I am going to take better care of me, by eating healthy and get on with some fitness regimes. Although I am lazier than the guy who drew the Japanese flag. I hate working out. So, I am thinking of getting back on the basketball court for street ball. That is the only way I can keep fit and enjoy it at the same time. I tried doing some sit ups last time and I fell asleep. LMAO I forgot to “sit up”. I am pathetic, I know. So, playing basketball again is a plan. Maybe I might join the gym (ha!) later on, I don’t know, like I said anything to live a better quality life! Embarking on this journey has been today’s epiphany, I can see the rainbow now.

I am so bugged I haven’t watched Blank Panther like, who am I? What am I doing with life? Sigh. So sometimes its important to take some time out, stop for minute to drink in the dazzling sunset, stop and listen to the songs of chirpy birds, the music of life, a distant howl, breathe in the after rain scent. Those little moments sewn together make life so beautiful. Wipe your bums with baby wipes and have your bum smelling like a fresh meadow. ( All mums would know lol) You get the gist. So tomorrow I will be back, fresh faced, well rested and ready to conquer the would. The world is mine! Mine! Mine! Muhahahaha!